today was a good thing. i really needed to let things go. but … i couldnt let everything out… i mean i only trust to do that in from of you. not other people you know… and i feel like… i cant do that anymore. like… i cant let everything out anymore. because … idk i feel like he doesnt need all of the drama in my life plus his. because he has some right now. but anyways… i have noticed he doesnt know everything about me anymore. and its kinda wierd…and a little scary, but i guess that is a good thing. i guess today i realized im growing up. and he is changing too. he is… not clinging on too anyone as he used too, idk. something inside me still wants him to be clingy, because i felt something, like i loved the attention maybe? idk. but that wont help me later in life. im just glad i have a great romodel figure like him.