im sick of you not wanting to be there for me anymore. not wanting to talk to me. be a part of my life anymore. im sick that i keep trying to talk to you and all you do is ignore me and i keep trying and trying and keep getting hurt and hurt. i dont even know you anymore. and you think you know me. you think i have turned into something bad… but i havent… you really dont know anything anymore. and it used to be i couldnt get you out of anything and now you dont care. its like i could fall off the face of the earth and you would never notice.

idk. you were the closest thing i had for a while and you were until recently. and now… everytime i try i just get so hurt because you dont care anymore! and im sick of loosing the ppl i care about so much. and you promised me you would be there for me and it took me a while to believe you but when i did… i got so attatched… and for a while everything was great. everything was amazing… and then…just like that. another one gone. that just hurts the worst. knowing i put all my trust in you… and then… uhhh :/ makes me hurt so bad. and knowing you dont make an effort hurts so much too. 

you used to be the person i would call if i really needed it and i still remember the day that summer i called you because i was freaking out and you talked to me on the phone and calmed me down. now you dont answer. i just… i can hurt anymore. i can wait for you anymore like i waited for my dad. he never came back, and i guess you wont either. i was closer to you than my dad. my uncle. anyone. and when they left you know how sad it made me. how down i was for a while. and you think that was bad… im loosing someone that ment more… and i wont have you to talk about it too. how im going to get through it… i dont know. You said sophmore year is the year everyone falls apart from you unless they make an effort. well i made the effort! you didnt. i dont know what else to do. all i know is this isnt my fault. for once i know, i tried. i really did. which means im not the failure in this one. someone else is…

goodbye.