so lets just say tonight was the craziest, hardest, most depressing day ever… i just cant believe how all this just happened in one day. it was like every minute got worse and worse. the bad things just never stopped!! i always put myself in these situations though.. i should know better. it just got so out of hand i couldnt stop anything.

idk what i should do. like part of me says just be alone and find yourself and have fun, but other part tells me everyone goes through rough times.. and i really do have someone that loves me and cares about me. idk what to think or feel anymore.

and to him..

i liked you so much and i dont even know why. i was always there for you i would have done anything for you. and you used me.