hmm. this summer has been pretty much amazing for the most part. i met sooo many new friends its crazy. i realized that im worth more than i thought i was. i get a bit stronger every summer. i learn new things. I got to see family i havent seen in forever. While there i met someone amazing. and i will never forget him. I can tell him anything. He will always be there for me, no matter how far away we live from eachother.

I didnt get to hang out with a lot of my best friends this summer. We just all have had other things to do. Its kinda upsetting but we still talk. I thought i lost my best friend ever, but we hung out the other week. and things are still good. I just hope that me quitting guard doesnt seperate us a lot more than we already have been.

I just got my other half sisters number, Ivy. Im so excited its been years since i have seen her. I cant wait to hang out with her. She needs someone since our dad freaking does the same thing to every kid he has. I just really hope he is okay after being stabbed six times. I know i say i hate him, but i dont want him to die. I just dont want nothing to do with him. But still doesnt mean i want him to suffer any more than he is.

Lets see, havent wrecked my car since the first one (: haha. hmm. The family is good it seems. I havent really been home this summer. Just come home to sleep. I dont want school to start, i hate hebron. I hate most of the people in it. They have nothing else to do but make fun of other people to make themselves feel better. I cant wait to graduate early and get out of this place.

Cory and i have been dating for 17 days now. thats a big step for me. haha. i really really like him. But he just told me last night that.. i like him way more than he likes me. and he isnt ready for love or anything for a really long time. I just dont understand why we were so happy and then randomly he gets all wierd. Its like he doesnt want to be that happy? I mean here i am not running away from a relationship because im ready for something more that a next door neighbor. (Which i havent texted in a month, but HE texted ME tonight. haha) I thought things were going good with me and Cory. And they are i mean were still dating, i just wish he hadnt said that or felt that. Because otherwise this would have been like the perfect relationship so far. My parents like him. I like his parents. They like me. Im scared that he is going to college and im still in high school. Idk… i just dont want this to end because im putting my all into it. And everytime i do, it just breaks me into a bagillion pieces, but here i am giving it another chance.

yep. thats my summer. wish it didnt have to end. :(