i am such a a jealous person. i mean i get so mad when justin even talks to some other girl. but i mean he does the same thing. but i didnt know i was just as jealous as he was. and now im super angry … i know i shouldnt be.. but why am i so so so jealous? idk… its bothering me a lot. i think im a very insecure person now. more than ever. idk. i feel like i have lost all my friends now, havent hung out with many of them in a long time… i think i forgot who my true friends are… and now im going to loose them all because im stupid and never make time for them anymore, which i need to do. i know i do, im just always with justin now… which i dont have a problem with… i just always promised myself i wouldnt let a guy get in the way of me and my family and my friends. but i mean he is different… i just hope something doesnt happent … and i loose him. and my friends. then i really wouldnt know what to do with my life after that. i have night school tonight… :( sucks… wish i had been going to school.. instead of skipping a lot. not a lot i can do now but go more. which im going to do so i can graduate early. i miss my friends and family a lot im not going to lie.. i just dont know what i can do to fix everything and still be happy with everyone i hang out now. well bell is about to ring. i will update this thing more. :) xoxoxox.